Kollaboration 9

I Love You, Man

I Love You, Man trailer

Class is really boring right now; it's a review of muscle fibers which I learned in undergrad, but basically it's 1 more day before Winter break.

Kanye Video

Kanye West - New Music - More Music Videos

Thoughts from this Week

LA Drivers...

LA Drivers are horrible

LA Drivers during the Christmas shopping season are even worst.

LA Drivers in the rain indescribable

More specifically LA drivers don't signal, don't know how to make left turns, don't know how to stop 

at a red light before making a right turn, and don't turn on their headlights when it would be beneficial to for themselves and other drivers.

Computer Problems

I was foolish and restarted my computer when Microsoft Office was updating, and then my Macbook wouldn't boot up properly.  Boy did that throw me for a loop.  I couldn't sleep well, and I was afraid that I would lose all my data, since I didn't back up my important files (pictures, music, school documents, artwork, etc.)  I did finally get it fixed Sunday afternoon, praise God!  It showed me how dependent I was on my computer, and how irresponsible I was not to back things up.  I was able to get to know the Apple technician pretty well, and talk about what his goals were and stuff.  It was a pleasant experience at the hectic mall (30 min. to find parking).  I've learned my lesson, and A+ for Apple service.

Raining like Norcal

The weather has been pretty ridiculous lately.  It's raining like I'm back in the Bay Area.  The gloomy weather is depressing, but it also means that there is snow, which would only be important if I were going snowboarding which is still up in there air (probably not).

Chick fil-A

Moist chicken

Waffle-cut fries

Coke Zero

Friendly service

Christian fast food chain

Baking

Two of my classmates baked cookies for the entire class and wrapped them and tied them with ribbon and curled the ribbon...lol.  I already told some of my friends that when I move into the house with the guys, that I would bake them a cake for their birthday or cakes in general.  So I was thinking of certain cakes, and I also thought of.....

Black and White cupcakes....

They look AWESOME!!!!  Okay that's enough for the random thoughts post this week.

Olive Crest Dinner

Cornerstone Bible Church organized a Christmas party at a foster home tonight, and I volunteered to go and help and celebrate with them, but I had really no idea what to expect.  I've served at homeless shelters and fellowshipped with strangers there too.  I expected to be going to a foster home for children, but what I walked into was a foster home with 15-16 year old boys.

I was caught off guard, but at the same time it was something I was a bit more familiar with.  Many of the boys were welcoming, but some also had their guard up, and were in situations that I couldn't relate too.  I tried my best to focus on getting to know them by learning about their hobbies and finding out what they do for fun.  I can't imagine being in the same situations that their in and not really having the foundation or support that I have.

One of the boys celebrated his 16th birthday tonight, and I guess he was more appreciative and excited since we were there and people actually celebrated his birthday with him.  It was more than just cake and a song.  On the way home, I thought about all those teenagers featured on MTV's program "Sweet Sixteen (Eighteen)...etc"  They go over the top to throw a party, where there are people who are happy and just satisfied in celebrating a 16th birthday with other foster kids and just random strangers that are just there to chill and throw a party for them.  He emphasized the importance of family during Christmas time when asked what Christmas is about.

Think about what really matters during this holiday season, and cherish what God has blessed with you this year.

Different Situations, Same God

I was watching another episode of "Secret Millionaire," and it reminded me that I wish I could be out there helping people right now, and that's one of the main reasons I want to be an optometrist.

In college, I participated in Alternative Breaks and met people and community groups that were organizing similar programs for the people in their community.  There is a certain joy and enthusiasm you have for helping people like that and knowing that there are bigger problems out there.  But realistically, God has other plans for people.  God doesn't plan for everyone to be run a transition home, or be the next Mother Theresa.  God will uniquely use you, your experience, your skills, and personality for His glory.  His will is for people to know about His gift, and the best way we can show that is through loving one another.

So, even though, our hardships may pale in comparison to those struggling in tough communities, it is reassuring to know that the God need to rely on through the hard times, and praise in the tough times, is the same God those in poorer neighborhoods pray to.

So if it is never in God's plan for us to directly affect the lives of those in poorer communities, we can be sure that God has His own plans for them, and God is loving, and fair.

Zoom Kobe IV

The new Kobe IV's that are low-top basketball shoes. They look pretty slick, but I wonder how much they'll cost. Even off the court, I think they'll be the slickest casual shoes out there. Also, it would be cool if they use the new fly-wire tech, and lunar cushion to make a new fashionable casual shoe that can be this generation's AF-1.

These also look really nice. The LeBron VI in the Anthracite colorway.

Thinking of Others

So I was watching a TV show on Hulu.com, called "Secret Millionaire."  The show is about muli-millionaires volunteering to live in poverty for a week, with a friend or family member.  Through the experience they are supposed to meet people that they feel they can best help with their money.  They cannot reveal their identities, and must live on the amount a welfare check would provide.  They must contribute at least $100,000 to one person or several people, to help their cause or whatever the millionaire says the money is for (personal self-improvement, medical bills, construction project, etc.)

I watched the first two episodes, and was really moved by it.  It was annoying to see the ignorance of those with wealth, but at least they were open minded enough to participate.  How I wish I was in the position to be able to write a check for such a large amount to give to someone to improve their life.  But if that's the train of thought that I have, then I will probably not ever be in that position because it takes certain personalities to make millions.  I don't think everyone has the ability to, or God doesn't plan that everyone become a millionaire.  So that leaves, the question, if there is a passion to help the needy, how can you help now without 6 zeros following the balance in your bank account.

The answer to this would be to contribute time, and to always think of others.  Plan and think about what you're doing and if it's impacting others, specifically the needy in a positive way.  Does buying a video game (which I buy) help me? help others? or have no effect?  Granted I need to buy things for myself, but so long as I don't over indulge myself with needless things, and which money or time could be spent to better the lives of others.  So the plan is to always plan to give back to the community, to others.  How will you pursuing your career improve the lives of the less fortunate, will it be direct, or indirect, and if not directly, what can you do directly to affect the lives of other people.

This idea kind of ties into my dilemma today.  I was disappointed that I somehow lost my focus or concentration before my exam today, and made a few careless mistakes (I don't know exactly how many), but be disappointed or frustrated about a grade does not compare to what others are struggling with right now: finding a warm place to sleep, finding their next meal, or even keeping warm as the weather is getting cooler.

God is sovereign and He always has a plan.  So whatever my grade is, I can only push forward and continue to do my best and keep my eyes, heart, and mind open to God's will for my life.  God is sovereign and has a plan for those struggling as well.  He will test us with trials that we will be able to overcome with the grace, power, and mercy of His Lordship.  His plan is unchangeable, but there is a method to what we deem as madness.

The 2nd Coming of Asian Rap

Can't forget about the upcoming album, "Animal" from Far East Movement.

It's cool to hear Jin tha MC rap in Cantonese and actually make some sense, even though the stuff he raps about isn't exactly serious or thought provoking.  Unfortunately, I don't understand it all, but just to hear Jin rap and hear the swagger laced between his rhymes is nice.  It just give that on the grind mentality, and take no prisoners.

I'll be the first to admit that I didn't grow up with specific adversities and I'm not ghetto, but I try to maintain that on the grind mentality, and never being satisfied.  It's like I got a chip on my shoulder and that is what keeps me going, and working harder to improve all aspects of my life.

Tired of finals.....

Here is my first post in a long time.  I'm in the midst of finals with 2 more to go.  I have practice management this afternoon, and then human anatomy and physiology, on thursday afternoon.  I feel sooo tired.

My final was at 8 am this morning, and I'm at school reviewing for practice management.  My motivation level is really low right now.  I feel like I need to take a nap, and just get refreshed and prepare for anatomy.  Optics this morning was okay, but I went through the test relatively quickly, and only double-checked once.  In the middle of the test, I had to take a break since I was so tired.  I'm just tired...lol.  I'm ready for a break, one last push for anatomy, and then just get out of these study rooms at school.

I've been at school every day for the past 3 weeks.  School isn't hard, but I just am studying so much more....

"First Asian Boy"

First Asian Boy

Blog drought

Sorry for the blog drought. I've just been busy with school, and it won't slow down until this quarter is over...

• Ne-Yo
• New Music

• Kevin Rudolf
• New Music

Pre-Midterm laughter...optometry humor...

Orientation Weekend

Orientation was looooong.  On Friday, we started at 7 AM, and we took pictures for our photo ID (my turned out ok, not the best picture, but whatever).  The picture took 2 minutes, and then I had to wait another hour and 45 minutes until the first speech by our president of the school.  It was good to mingle, but needless to say having to wake up at 5:45 and just providing us with water was not worth it.

During the 2nd speech, I almost fell asleep.  My eyelids were getting heavy, and maybe because I didn't have any coffee, not that it does help that much.  As the day continued and I kept hearing people talk, and there was a discussion session with 2nd years who shared some info with us, I just felt like I was tired of hearing about the experience and actually live it.  I guess at the point I was ready for the challenges of optometry school.

The second day was much shorter, but also just a lot of needless paperwork.  However the financial aid information was important, and I did pay attention to that.  SCCO is really conservative, and I think maybe that struck a chord with my NorCal roots.  I'm not super liberal in anyway, but I know we're professionals now and we represent the institution, but traditions need to meet up with the times and adapt to what is new and modern.  Who wears a tie and dress shirt in 85 degree weather?!?  But yeah, what can I do.  In a way it's good to have and image of credibility when you're a professional, but seriously you're in Southern California...give us a break.

In addition to the events, I've been looking left and right for a basketball court.  Most courts in LA are outdoor, and the indoor courts require memberships or some amount of payment to use.  It's been kind of disheartening.  I guess it's the same way in NorCal, but I've never really had to look too hard for court to play on since I didn't play as much back then.  I guess the search continues.  I'm contemplating a membership at CSU Fullerton, but it is $32/month, which is about the same as my Bally's fiasco, but the deciding factor is if I'll be going often enough with the work load.  I'm looking to get back into swimming and playing a lot more basketball.

There was a lot of stress placed on leadership at SCCO, and participating in class government or student association (SA).  With my college experience and personality, it's hard for me not to want to take on challenges and plan large things for everyone to enjoy, but this time around I need to make sure I'm in the right place that I'm making the grade.  They are saying it doesn't get easier, and the best time to do it is your first year, but I am trying really hard not to bite on the bait.  They say it's good for networking and meeting people, but I'm moving back to NorCal after this (most definitely), and my connections have started there.

Driving around the O.C. the area I would probably most feel comfortable and hang out in is Rowland Heights, the Asian area.  There is good food, and dessert places (to be found).  Other than that I'm down for coffee and movies or whatever.  The bar scene in downtown Fullerton is pretty intense, but I haven't gone into a bar yet.

During the picnic, I pretty much showed all my cards.  There was a game that teams had to choose a person to do something or have something that was requested, and I did a Michael Phelps impersonation,  Best Old School Dance move, and hidden talent.  So all was laid out, and I don't really have any more surprises up my sleeve.  We'll see how those actions follow me throughout optometry school.  So much for keeping a low profile, but just enough to be known, and not enough to be disliked.

I never knew I'd experience this much in one weekend of going back to school; maybe I'm just turning on my observation skills again.  My parents left to go back to the Bay, and I was pretty sad.  It's the first time that I'm actually living pretty far from home.  My parents have done so much for me, and it's time for me to grow up at bit.  My parents and I don't always have the best relationship, but I know they love me and have sacrificed so much for me, so that I could pursue my own interests and goals.

Tomorrow is the first day, and we have a Fall Assembly with a guest speaker.  We are encouraged to dress professional to make a good impression.  The kicker is the speaker is blind....

Racist Spaniards?

Bill Plaschke, a LA Times sports writer, points a finger at Pau Gasol.  The photo above is of the Spanish National Basketball team competing in Bejing.  The photo was published a week ago, and hit mainstream media earlier this week.  It depicts the team using their fingers to create the "slanted eyes" or "chink eyes" look.  It's flat out racist, and it's not only the basketball team, other images have been found of Spanish sports teams posing in the same fashion.

I've just moved to the LA area, and I agree that Paul Gasol was a great addition to the Lakers organization, but to pull a stunt like this and not sincerely apologize or recognize the implications of his actions is irresponsible and disrespectful.  LA is obviously a big metropolis with many Asian Americans, and Pau probably lost all their respect.

The Spanish team had 5 players this past year and upcoming year in the NBA, and has a possible prospect: Pau Gasol, Juan Carlos Navarro, Jose Calderon, Jorge Garbajosa, and Ricky Rubio, and Marc Gasol.  I can't blame everyone or say all of them are racist, but they definitely have talent and have entered the NBA, so we're going to be seeing them around.  To know that players insult my ethnicity like that and not feel sorry, they're going to get booed by me no matter how good they are.

I wish the Chinese National Team had beat them early this week, but maybe Team USA will have better luck.  Pau Gasol is soft power forward, and I hope Dwight Howard shuts him up.  I'll be the first to admit that I'm disappointed that the US isn't beating China in the race for gold medals, and they're sports training policy is too harsh and unethical, but don't hate on someone based on how they look.  Sorry, Pau, we don't all have turkey necks and nasty hair.

Hello, Orange County

So I've been living in Southern California for 24 hours.  LA suburbs are definitely nothing like San Francisco.  San Francisco has cultural neighborhoods, unique restaurants, and scenic views.  What I've seen so far is strip mall after strip mall pretty much, and there isn't much scenic around LA suburbs unless you want to take pictures of parking lots.

I'm not hating, but Orange County is just a different place.  My room is pretty spacious.  Living my relatives will be nice, but it will take some getting used to.  I need to set up a routine.  One thing I did notice about LA, other than the aggressive driving, is that the speed limit is 10 mph faster than comparable areas in SF.  Residential is 35 mph , main streets with traffic lights are 45 mph, and side roads are 50 mph.  That's pretty ridiculous.  However I did find an alternate route to my school which is 50 mph, and it's hilly with curves, so it should be fun to drive as opposed to driving straight on Imperial Hwy, which has all the distractions with strip malls and chain restaurants.  Chain restaurants...I miss the unique family-run restaurants of the Bay already.

Any way, I need to sleep.  I have an orientation tomorrow at 7 am, where they will be taking my picture, and I have to dress formally for the orientation in 85 degree weather....again ridiculous.

Packing 'n Moving

So, I'm packing for the move down to So Cal, and it is somewhat setting in that a transition is happening, a new chapter in my life is starting.  Things that are different from my transition to college:

1) Distance

I won't just be an hour and 30 min. away from home, but at least 6 hours from home.  Yes, I'll be in California, but Northern and Southern California are completely different places.  When I was in Davis, I didn't come home that often, maybe once every 2 months, but this time around I'll only be going home when there are breaks in the school schedule.

2) Friends

When I moved to Davis, I actually was accepted into a summer transitional program, so I made friends before school even started.  Also about 120 of my classmates from high school were going to Davis, so there was always a familiar face.  Many of my friends from my high group of friends also decided to go to Davis.  In this case, there is only one person from Davis (that I kind of know going to SCCO), she was my housemate's friend.  I organized a get together for some of my Nor Cal classmates, where we were able to get to know each other.  Hopefully, that will be a good way to transition into a new environment with completely new faces.  

3) Living Situation

First year of Davis, I lived in the dorms, which was fine.  But what really will be different is that I am living with relatives in So Cal.  In Davis, I had two housemates, Adam and Ethan, whom were great housemates (irreplaceable, actually).  But now I'm living "alone," and with some courtesy rules to adhere to.  Yes, it is easier that I don't have to worry about taking care of chores as much, but living on my own makes it more lonely.  I'm an only child as it is, so this might be more difficult.  On the other hand, it's definitely helping out the wallet, so I should hope to have it work out.

I think these are the 3 things that make me anxious.  Change is exciting, and I'm always open to new things, but it's hard moving from the Bay, and really adjusting to 4 years of preparation for your career.  I'm sure there is some cliche quote about adapting to change is what strengthens our character.  I'm sure I'll do fine and adapt to the situation, whether it be making friends, or studying.  For me, it's that I have to put my mind to it and conjure up the effort to do all those things, not that I'm lazy, but to be a person who is consistently out-going is not who I am.

God has a plan, and I just need to be open-minded enough to see it and follow it, though I may not understand it.

School, Church, and Basketball

My objectives for moving to Southern California and keeping a balance between the pressures of studying and just enjoying my time with minimal stress.  I'll be taking the heaviest course load ever, averaging about 20 units per quarter.  So, I'll need to focus on succeeding in the classroom.

Finding a church, or a body, will be imperative for my walk and just as a community I can just share and be open with.  My relationship with God this past year definitely is different from what it was like in college, but I still look to Him for guidance, and try my best to live up to a higher standard.  What I've been missing this year is a community in which I can continue to grow, and just share things with.

Basketball will be my stress outlet and a way to keep in shape.  When I'm not studying, hopefully I'll be on the court, working out, or just relaxing a bit.  I just want to play and improve my game, and have fun playing with classmates or friends.  Recognizing how my friends play, and just improving together.

This post might be a bit disorganized cause I'm watching the Olympics (beach volleyball).  These three objectives will be my cornerstone for maintaining a balance for my life in SoCal, and hopefully everything else will fall into place: friends, relationships, grades, health.

Customer Service

I went shoe shopping today, and I don't often do that.  If I go shopping for shoes, they usually have all the sizes displayed on the shelf, and I just find my size and try it on.  I was in SF Shopping Centre, and decided to try on some Vans.  The conclusion.  Canvas shoes are not for me.  Converse Chucks are fitted too large, so I wear smaller sizes; the same goes for Vans.  Canvas just doesn't give me the same support for the sides of my feet, so I didn't like them when I put them on.

What I wanted to get was the Nike Hyperdunks, which are the new basketball shoes that are less than 1 lb.  I wanted to look into getting casual shoes, but Hyperdunks were on the top of my list too.  AF-1s are no longer popular, which is why I was looking into Vans.  Now, I'm looking into Nike Blazers and Dunks.  But with the hot weather in SoCal I'm going to need shoes with some breathability.

From my experience in retail at an optometry office, I understand the importance of customer service.  So when I went into Foot Locker, no one greeted me and no one asked to help me, until I asked for a specific shoe.  Granted there may not be enough people on the "floor" to help people, but needless to say, I was less than happy to be there.  I tried on the LeBron Zoom Soldier II, it fit well like a boot, but it didn't feel flexible.  I think the sole was designed in a way for lateral motion rather than speed, more of low post play than guard play.  I came back to the same Foot Locker later that day, and I had the same experience.  I have a gift card for $25 for Foot Locker, which I was more than willing to spend, but maybe the people there just don't like their job that much.

I went to the Champs on the lower level, and they had a pair of Hyperdunks that I tried on.  The salesperson apologized for being busy helping other people, and was more than willing to chat with me a bit about basketball shoes.  I didn't have any gift certificate, but I felt more willing to give Champs my business.  I have never spent over $100 on shoes (Hyperdunks retail for $110), and I was a bit hesitant, but when I tried them on some more at home...I LOVE the shoes.  I was concerned about the fit, which was resolved when I tried them at the store, but the shoes are snug, tight but not too tight, and provide support all around the ankle and side.

Unfortunately, I tried on some Adidas shoes, but they just didn't fit well at all.  I wear the Superstars, but the Somas don't fit at all.  The shoes are too narrow.

The main thing is after doing customer service for a year, I feel that it's pretty important for my own shopping experience.  Check out Kobe's videos about the Hyperdunks:

1st Time Golfing

So, I had my first golfing experience yesterday.  I went to the driving range with Robin, Annie, and Elaine.  I learned some of the fundamentals of the swing.  I had only putted before, and I didn't learn how to putt.  I just watched how they showed it on TV.  I used a 7 iron, 6 iron, sand wedge, and a driver.  When hitting a golf ball with a driver, it sounds like bashing egg shells...lol.

I enjoyed the experience, and it made me appreciate golf more.  Basketball will still be my favorite sport, but at least I've tried my hand at golf, and there are a lot of courses down in Southern California.  I also noticed the different follow throughs or poses that the people have.  It's funny but it matters in the dynamic, and complex motion of a swing.

College is Priceless

"I would love Kobe to come to Duke University to play for me," added Team USA Coach Mike Krzyzewski.  "I can't offer him that kind of salary, but he would receive a university diploma instead." Kobe said he might play for a Russian club team if they could offer him 40 million a year.

Coach K is one of the most well respected coaches in college history.  What he said may have be a joke, but I do believe there is some bitter truth to it.  One side of basketball encourages young, talented athletes to skip college (which is no longer allowed, a one year minimum must be completed) to join the NBA draft.  Another side encourages athletes to remain in college longer if not to continue to develop their individual game, and thus be more attractive in the following draft.  Many times commentators talk about maturing individuals in basketball, not just their game, but their personalities as well.  If the professional basketball business is so concerned about the development of the whole individual, why not have them finish college?

Either way college is four years of not just an education, but a time when ideas and interests can be explored and pursued.  If our society was not so focused on money, celebrity, maybe more people would value the experience of college and the freedom to grow up.  The NBA and respective general managers should not be hypocritical and assume their organization can help someone better mature than a 4 year college experience.  Also who knows, maybe after 4 years they may find out that they don't love the game as much as they used to.  It's a win-win because players are mature and developed, and scouts will be able to paint a better picture of who those players can be in the NBA.

Hilarious

Learned my lesson

I tried to cancel my membership to Bally's Total Fitness today, and was told that I can only cancel if I moved to a place where a Bally's was farther than 25 miles from where I would be living, or I have a medical condition that prevents me from excercising. I wanted to cancel the membership because when I move to Southern California, I will have the opportunity to sign up to use the CSU Fullerton Rec Center.

A part of it is my fault for jumping the gun when I signed up for the the membership. I did not listen to my mom, and thought I knew what I was doing by signing the contract. I signed up for a 36-month membership. So I currently have $875 still due on my account. I am trying to figure out how to get out of the membership, or contemplating paying my membership in full. I am also looking into transferring the membership to my dad, so maybe he can use the rest of the 2 years remaining, while I am in Fullerton.

Something I noticed in my personality is that I do not like being wrong, or being told that I am wrong. I do not like making mistakes that I could have avoided. I could have avoided this scenario. I am more mad at myself than anything, and I wish it would just work itself out, but that does not happen in real life. As and adult, I just have to face the financial consequences and learn from my actions.

If you do not like making mistakes, then take the time necessary to avoid them. It is better to take my time than to rush into things. As much as I learn from mistakes, I just feel embarrassed, when I make them, when I should know better.

The Dark Knight

The Clown Prince of Gotham, the Joker, definitely carried the film to a different level. Not only did Heath Ledger deliver an outstanding performance, but the writing of the script by David Goyer was great.

I felt that this movie was a true sequel to Batman Begins, and that it had forced Bruce Wayne to continue to explore his vigilante persona, Batman, and what it stands for to the city of Gotham. In Begins, the origin story, Wayne is anxious to fight crime and defend his city. In Dark Knight, he realizes that he has limits, and that he did not respect the criminals in Gotham. Batman pushed to hard, and the Joker arrived and pushed back. In response, Harvey Dent and Rachel Dawes fall into the crossfire. In the end Batman becomes a new symbol for Gotham, which will most likely be carried over into the next film (crosses fingers). This sequel did not deliver over the top action or unnecessary action, but just the right amount to carry the story. This also did not feel like a filler sequel like Pirates of the Caribbean 2 or Lord of the Rings 2. But in order to truly appreciate this film [Dark Knight], it has to be seen after Batman Begins, with the idea of the development and evolution of Batman. If we view it that way, we will definitely appreciate what Batman 3 will bring to the table.

No other superhero film that I have seen has tackled or express such exploration in it's protagonist. Dark Knight delivers on the relationship between the needs of Gotham, the idea of Batman, and the presence and reason of the Joker. Maybe it is because I read a lot of comic books, or stories in general, but I do appreciate how this film continues the Batman legacy, even though it was not as action-packed or laid back as Batman Begins.

Mission Complete

I can say that I am done with my pre-requisite classes for optometry school. I finished my final today around 10:15 AM. I also paid for and submitted my request to send the transcript for the course to SCCO, and my home address. The final was fair in the beginning and at the end, but in the middle it was pretty tough. Overall the questions were not too detail oriented, but were comprehensive. I am just glad that I am finished, and can not focus on other things. Hopefully I can divide my time up between relaxing, reading, video games, drawing, etc.

Something that has been on my mind lately has been starting school. I am afraid that I might have a hard time balancing socializing and studying. I already am living with family, so my "home" study space will be separate. I do not want to get trapped into building friendships too much, when I should be studying. From my experience in college, I have had the habit where I spent time hanging out and getting to know people, and also investing my time in "bigger" causes and neglecting my studies (it was one of my excuses in one of my personal statements). I know my personality likes to observe and apply what I see to situations, and see how I can improve things, or turn them around. I also like to envision big projects or things that can be done, but that involves investing a lot of time, something which I may not have a lot of when I need to start studying for my profession. Hopefully moving into a new environment, and making new friends, I will be able to prioritize.

Almost done...

My final for abnormal psychology is tomorrow. The course is finally coming to a close. I started the class in March, and diligently completed an assignment each week. This was in addition to applying for optometry school, interviewing, and the OAT (now about a year ago). This class has been set on a deadline for me because I have to finish it before school starts. So I am glad that after about 11 AM tomorrow, it will be finished. I am off to bed, hopefully will get in a nice breakfast tomorrow before my 9 AM final.

Team Chemistry

I am playing basketball in a summer league, and our record is 4-1. From practicing with my team, and playing together in games, we are a pretty deep team. All our team members can score, and we have some big game players. This is my first time playing for this team, so I do not really know anyone and do not necessarily have a leadership role. But the team has different personalities, and I do not think our coach took the time to have us get to know each other. He just had us start scrimmaging on the court to figure out how we all like to play.

But when it comes down to who does the talking, and who we listen to, there seems to be some varying attitudes about that. The main reason I look forward to playing organized ball, is playing as a team and learning how to help each other play their game, and improving as a team as well. The point of my post is that sometimes I do not see that happening. It was apparent to me that one of my teammates was disgruntled about his playing time or the amount of touches he got in a game. I can understand that too. He is 6 feet something, has good footwork in the post, and is in division where not too many people match up well with his size. He has been limited to playing defense. He is a bit younger than me, so maybe he has room to mature, but I do agree that he should get more touches.

As a result of his time on the floor and experience in games, he has not really displayed good attitude, but like I mentioned, I can see where he is coming from. The coach makes decisions where he thinks the players he puts on the floor will have the best chance of winning the game. But it is not just what happens during game time, but what also happens during practice. This is also a Christian basketball league, so if anything we should be "reaching out" to others to smooth out conflicts.

I definitely appreciate what all my teammates bring to the table in terms of skills, and all of us can improve in certain areas. I appreciate the fundamentals, and feel that they are seriously overlooked. And a team with good fundamentals can easily dominate a game in our league. Any way, I love the game of basketball, and I do get discouraged when I do not get a lot of playing time or the opportunity to play through droughts or tough spots, but I respect my coaches decision, and I just look forward to the next practice and game.

I <3 basketball, until my body breaks down....lol

The "new-look" Warriors

I decided to make this post based on the recent news about Baron Davis, ex-point guard of the Golden State Warriors, and his decision to sign with the L.A. Clippers. I was keeping up with the news about the NBA Free Agency period, and read that Davis opted out. I was surprised how someone could just walk away from about 18 million dollars. I guess I wasn't surprised as much as I was speechless because Davis was one of the reason I enjoyed watching the Warriors, and started following them as a team. I did not jump on the playoff bandwagon in the 06-07 season. I saw my first Warriors game the previous season, and that's when I totally immersed myself in Warriors basketball.

I loved Baron Davis' swagger, and his "big" guard style of play. I will admit that I hated when he got lazy and hoisted up a tres, or how he thought he could win the game alone. I knew Davis wouldn't be around for long, but to leave one year early, and sign with another team in our division, hurts. He could have stayed with the Warriors and nurtured up and coming point guards that we would draft or acquire, but I guess that's wishful thinking. The NBA is not always idealistic, and many players are driven by the power of the dollar. Kevin Garnett is probably one player who stuck with a team, and did everything he could to make them better, until the management decided to go in a different direction, and I guess I was hoping Davis was that type of person. Davis, according to other websites, donated money for Hurricane Katrina relief, and also had the summer basketball program in LA and also in the Bay Area for urban youth, so I am on the fence as whether to be a Baron lover or hater. I appreciated his play for the Warriors and his intensity that he brought in his game. I will remember his fadaway left baseline jumper that he loves, his ridiculous, no-look passes, and the dunk on AK-47. Davis was not always the best player, but he plays for the moment, and he gave us, Warrior fans, many moments to go "dumb" about. But again, to opt out of an organization that gave you a second chance, that defended you against New Orleans' "boos", is surprising and heart-breaking.

1. Monta Ellis (G)

2. Stephen Jackson (G)

3. Al Harrington (F/C)

4. Andris Biedrins (C)

5. Brandan Wright (F/C)

6. Marco Bellinelli (G)

7. Anthony Randolph (F)

8. Richard Hendrix (F)

9. Kelenna Azubuike (G/F)

10. CJ Watson (G)

11. Kosta Perovic (C)

12. Matt Barnes (F)

13. Austin Croshere (F/C)

Signing Corey Maggette:
After reading a lot of posts by Warriors beat writers, Corey Maggette is no replacement for Baron Davis, but he's athletic, will fit in with Nellie's style, and a good leader. People doubt his rebounding, play-making ability, and his health. But Nellie has a habit of rejuvenating a player's career, and he'll be a needed leader for the young players on our team. He has the swagger to fit in with our Bay Area pride.

Offer Signed by Ronny Turiaf:
I like this move, even though the Lakers still have the opportunity to match. Turiaf is a big-bodied bruiser that we can put on the floor. A writer expressed concern that if Turiaf is a Warrior that wouldn't leave many minutes for Hendrix, which is why I think Harrington maybe traded. These moves by Mullin are not just about making a team that will fit Nellie's system, but getting good players for the franchise, so future coaches will have a more conservative looking squad. What I think would be nice with the big-bodied power forwards is that they can keep their position on defense, and plug up the lane. Then the long arms of Biedrins, Wright, or Randolph can block the shot attempt. This would be similar to how Davis stole the ball when Nowitski was in the post, or how Baron would swat the ball from behind.

Pietrus signing with Orlando:
Pietrus was nice to have around, but it was obvious that if he had a chance to leave that he would take it. He's a good player, but probably has reached his ceiling at least with the Warriors and the minutes that he got last season.

What's next?:
Reports are saying that they are looking for a 3rd point guard to back Ellis and Watson. There are two point guards on their summer league team that are options. Another option would be trading Al Harrington for Kyle Lowry (or another PG). But I do agree with the need for a point guard. I would re-sign Azubuike again because he's a great all around player. I am sure there is much more excitement to come this off-season.

PG: Ellis/ Watson/ Lowry
SG: Jackson/ Bellinelli/ Azubuike*
SF: Maggette /Randolph
PF: Turiaf*/ Wright
C: Biedrins/ Hendrix

"Changes"

So, I wanted to type this post before I forget what the experience was like. Last week, I was waiting for the bus to go to work. The bus I wait for goes through Chinatown, therefore many elderly Chinese people are on the bus, along with other people going to work. The bus is usually crowded and sometimes does not stop. In this case the bus stopped, and the bus was moderately full, and two African American males wanted to get on. They were telling the people on the bus (mainly Chinese immigrants, who are ESL) to move to the back of the bus. From my experience on the bus, most people don't go all the way to the back. The African American males grew impatient and were swearing at the people to move back, and still there was no movement. In the end the African Americans got on to the next bus, but expressed their frustration about the people not moving to the back of the bus.
I could identify with both parties here. I know that the Chinese people don't cooperate, and whether it is because of a culture difference or that they are not fluent in English, they just look out for themselves. They will lug their bags of groceries on the bus, and take up space. They will not move all the way to the back of the bus, thus preventing 5-10 more people to fit onto the crowded bus. Don't get me wrong though, there are time where I have seen them display consideration for others. Also, the stigma and stereotyping behind color, and being black might have played a role in this situation. Maybe the Chinese people did not want to cooperate because they were afraid, especially when the two people started yelling. I can see why the situation arose.
I got onto a different bus, and was standing by two elderly Chinese women. They rose and got off at the bus stop. I proceeded to look around to see if anyone wanted/needed the seat before I would decide to sit down. Before I know it, a Caucasian couple squeeze by me to sit. The man was wearing sunglasses and just had that careless look on his face. I was so mad. I couldn't believe the inconsideration that he displayed. I proceeded to walk to the back of the bus, and cool off.

It's instances like this where you wonder how people can get along in this world. I wish that people could understand each other, and be respectful of each other. I guess I've seen a lot on the bus, and people really have to see that we're all the same. We go through similar experiences, though we're no the same race, age, or background. Also don't stereotype people by the way they look because things that come out of their mouth may surprise you. This goes both ways. And no matter what people are like, you have to respect them, not to be confused with revering them, but at least respect that they are people and can make their own choices.

God teaches us to love one another, and to love Him. It's considered the two most important commandments in the New Testament. In writing it's simple, but with this world and our experiences, it's difficult. But you know it's right, and it's what we should strive for.

"I got love for my brother but we can never go nowhere
unless we share with each other
We gotta start makin' changes
learn to see me as a brother instead of 2 distant strangers
and that's how it's supposed to be " - Tupac "Changes"

Back in Davis

This past weekend I went up to Davis because Asian American Christian Fellowship held it's Alumni Banquet. I woke up at 7:30 on Saturday morning, which is earlier that I would have to wake up if I were working on Saturday, and left my house at 8:30. I called Crystal, waking her up from her beauty sleep, at 9:15, since I was around Vacaville. I arrived in Davis at 10:15, and realized I forgot my toothbrush at home. I bought a toothbrush at Safeway.

First thing I did was decide to play basketball at the ARC. I don't know if it's the practice with FCBC, or the competition, but it was the best basketball I've ever played. Things seemed to be slower. I saw passing lanes and lead the pass to cutters or open shooters. I penetrated and attacked the basket. I pump faked, side-stepped, and popped the j. I posted up down low, cause of the mismatch, and make the turn around hook shot. I boxed out and grabbed rebounds. It was fun. That's highlight number one.

Highlight number two was hearing what the alumni had to say at the banquet. As most of shared how were were doing spiritually after having graduated from Davis, everything people shared in some way related to what I've been going through the past year. It was reassuring and a good reminder of what was to come and how I should approach it. Mark talked about getting plugged in a church, Kelvin about being humbled, Rich about slowing down and building up a strong spiritual foundation, Ariel about seeing God in the darkest of times, Tiff about being true to yourself, Melissa about trusting in God when your not sure what's next, Darrin about knowing how God is always in control, David about friendships and family in the body that is AACF. I talked about building up a spiritual foundation in AACF, before leaving so when stepping into the real world that you are a representative of Christ through your actions, especially in a non-Christian environment. God has also reminded me of that so many times since I have to help different patients whom have different personalities.

The final highlight was when I went out with the girls and the guys. It was at Soga's, and I was dancing. A black girl started to shuffle up to me, and I was thinking dance battle, but Michelle D. gets the wrong idea and starts to dance with her. After that miscommunication, she comes back to me, dusts off my shoes, mockingly unzips my jeans and pretends to smoke my p*nis. At that point, I was thinking it's on. In the back of my mind, I was also thinking do I really want to have a c-walk battle with a black person. I understand the history behind the c-walk and the b-walk, and the gangs etc. So whether I do the c-walk properly or not, I don't intend to offend anyone or initiate any trouble, to me it's just a dance style/step, that's fun. At this point the adrenaline is just running through my body, and it was pretty quick, so I don't remember all the details. I do some of my steps, and she copies me, so I step it up to some side shuffling, and she does some heel-toe, which I copy, and then she touches me or something, and I moved her arms off me and then began to do the "terminator" which I learned at Davis...lol. At that point she didn't know what to do, and pretty much admitted defeat. I don't remember if I did any krumping movements with my arms, but I remember pretending to fart at her while dancing away and waving my hand behind my butt. She came up to me and popped my collar, and I shook her hand, and that was it. David B. gave me the thumbs up, and Crystal T. was yelling, "yaaay," and gave me a hug. It was intense, fun, and thoroughly enjoyable.

I miss Davis, and my friends there. I wish I had more time, and could catch up with people more. It was hard to be comfortable when I wasn't staying in my own apartment, but it was only for a night. I miss my own place in Davis. But I guess, it'll be that much harder to keep in touch when I'm in LA, and really catch up with people.

Asian American Vote

First I'm not up-to-date with the Democratic party, and the different solutions that Obama and Clinton pose to the same problems. I know that it's a tight race, and the Obama has a majority of the votes from the delegates for the Democratic party nomination. I've also heard that Clinton will support Asians, and Obama did not (or something like that).
The clip below has Beau Sia, of Def Poetry fame, encouraging and motivating Asian Americans to recognize the authority and power they have in voting and asking the the politicians to focus on Asian Americans and their contribution to this country, and recognize that they need our vote too. So as much as this post is about voting, and being politically active or aware, it's also about being Asian American and recognizing what obstacles are against our people group.



More Videos of Beau Sia from Def Poetry Jam: *caution* some explicit language *caution*

Goodbye 22, Hello 23

So it's been about a week and a half since I turned 23. I finally decided to update this blog, and instead of trying to write long, thoughtful posts, maybe I'll try to post more with nuggets of thought. I've been trying to retain all this information, but it's kind of hard.

I'm not too sure what to think about turning 23, but I do feel that I am older, and that I should be thinking and acting older. It's like time to grow up and focus on L-I-F-E. I had that feeling when I graduated college, that everything up to that point had been to finish college and have and idea about what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. After I graduated, it was all about DOING those things to have a life, and plan ahead for family, finances, and just thinking about responsibility that actually impacted other individuals. So as I'm preparing to enter optometry school in August, I'm thinking more seriously about my class work, and networking, and thinking about opportunities and ideas for getting a job and working after I finish school. Granted that some of my classmates are already married either at my age or a bit older, the environment will definitely be different from undergrad.

Also being 23, in four years after optometry school, I'll be 27! I just went to a dinner for my friend's 27th birthday, and he's getting married within the next 6 months. Also my friend who is graduating from SCCO will get married next year. So it's a possibility that after 4 years I MAY be thinking about getting married, and I'm currently single...LOL. Contemplating about my age just makes me feel like I'm older, more mature especially when I'm sitting on the bus and I see young kids taking the bus to go to elementary or middle school, and then I see the older (senior citizens) taking the bus. It's like a gradient, old people in the front, and young people in the back.

I guess it's not so much my age, but what's happening in my life at this point. I'm moving on to optometry school, people around me are getting married, and I'm around more people older than me than are my age. It's exciting to be older and accept the responsibility that comes with it because with the responsibility are the opportunities to really come into your own and start becoming the adult that you hope to be.

Next year, I'll be saying hello to mid-20's!

Music to Dance to

This post is kind of random, but it's cool how videos can be embedded onto a blog. Even though I don't go clubbing or dancing as much as I did maybe in my last year at Davis, I can't deny the hip hop in me. So here are a few videos that should be thoroughly enjoyed because of the great upbeat R&B music, and the dancing by Ne-yo, Chris Brown, and Usher.

I remember I had aspirations to be in a dance crew and perform and everything. Also the night where Darrin and I choreographed a dance routine in about 24 hours for Sisters' Appreciation. I also had the idea of creating a Christian hip hop group, or a dance crew, and the time at LTC where I dance to worship music (which was awesome). There is something about dancing that just makes me feel loose, and edgy just dancing away. Here's to the music that will be coming this summer that will just get your head bobbing, body shaking, and feet stepping!

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asian americans + Christian fellowships = More than Meets the Eye?

I was doing my daily browsing on Angry Asian Man. He posts relevant articles and issues in the news regarding Asian Americans, and most are articles about racist acts or marketing ploys etc. But the site does also have articles promoting Asian American music, film, and other media like comic books. This is the article that caught my attention:

East Bay Express: "Young, Asian American, and Christian" by Kathleen Richards

Before delving into my comments about the article, I want to address the author of this article and the newspaper in which it was printed. The author is not Asian, nor Asian American, and the newspaper is probably not as reputable as something like the SF Chronicle, or San Jose Mercury. The reporter based on the tone of the article is also probably not Christian.

The positives of this article is that people observe how many Asian Americans are finding a relationship with Christ. Richards reports the statistics of Asian American in the population, and then in the college population. She dips into our backgrounds and compares generalizes a bit that Asian Americans who have grown up in suburbia realize that there is more to life through Christianity. As information presented regarding Asian American college students, it does pretty well in somewhat describing who we are and where we come from. What it may ignore are the Asians that grow up in metropolises like San Francisco and Oakland (since the article focuses heavily on the experience at Berkeley). The background is somewhat different from Asian Americans from the suburbs, however the idea of self-sacrifice is probably more prevalent.

Richards describe instances on how our understanding and our faith affects decisions in our lives. The examples she describes are familiar because I myself have gone through it or I know someone in a similar situation, hence the familiarity in the Asian American experience. It does give a sense of authenticity and familiarity when reading because it describes many stories and ideas I heard when I was in Asian American Fellowship at U.C. Davis.

However, what I do not like, and what I feel the article does a poor job in is understanding or even writing it in a way where a reader can get a handle on how our faith in God has changed us. I can't sufficiently express how God has played a role in my life in one sentence, or to even have someone quote it. Her report on the "large group" experience is unclear as to whether is it good or bad because her tone and descriptions conflict. The outcome of the paragraph is that the fellowship experience is "same old, same old." Sure, she notes that someone cried, but then she ends it with the thought that they went out for ice cream.

The article also seems to emphasizes heavily on how church leaders repeat that GPA is not important, maybe it is just Berkeley, but I know I heard that often when I was at Davis as well. I'm not sure why Richards reiterates that point so often, is it because the article is about Asian Americans, and the stereotype behind our ethnic groups are that we are hardworking and smart? After reading this my friend, said "[she] makes it seem like Christianity is a band aid for the pressures of the Asian American experience." Is Richards, trying to incite that Christianity is an outlet for Asian Americans to relieve the pressures felt to succeed by the older generation?

The though titled "Young, Asian American, and Christian" has a section titled Faith and Science, which does not relate to the Asian American experience at all. Overall, I don't think this article finds it's voice and conveys it's intentions. It does a good job in presenting different aspects of faith amongst Asian Americans on the U.C. Berkeley campus. Her diction causes her to choose the word "recruit," which can be misinterpreted. As a Christian, I do not see myself recruiting others into a fellowship. What I see myself doing is sharing my experience of a relationship with Jesus Christ. Obviously, I can't speak for all Christians.

Given the pros and cons of this article. Here is what readers should take away:

1. It is great that people are trying to understand faith amongst Asian Americans and why many Asian Americans are choosing to follow Jesus Christ during college, whether it be cultural influences, ethnic differences, etc. Exploring connections between Christianity and Asian American ethnic background can further up individuals understand the cornerstones of their faith and why they believe. Do they believe because of lifestyle and tradition, or do they believe because we comprehend the sacrifice and gift that Jesus Christ gave us through His death?

2. Someone cannot fully comprehend the greatness of God secondhand. Seeing God's glory is a personal experience, and unique to your life. When you truly give up control of everything, God will show you who He is.

3. Despite the career choices, and the different attitudes about GPA, people are not complaining but find it easier and more enjoyable the life they are living after understanding Christ compared to before. Physical life is too short to stress over achieving success in this world because it is only temporary. God gave us the talent to succeed, but does that desire to succeed take priority over God? and how can we use the talents He gave us for His will?

4. If non-Christians view us like Richards does, what does it say about your actions, your relationship with God? Do people see the change that God has brought into your life? Do the lyrics, "they will know we are Christians by our love," resonate through your actions?

5. God is universal, unchanging, and unconditional love. He is not defined by ethnic identity or culture. He is the same and we believers are different. We may come to Him through different means, and worship Him in different ways, but He receives it all the same.

*Note that the mention of Glide Memorial Church in San Francisco. I don't consider that to be a Christian church because of it's teachings of different beliefs. It is a great community, and a need in the Tenderloin district to care for the homeless, but in terms of spiritual foundations it is not a Christian church.


On a lighter note:
comic is from Secret Asian Man

Served by Community

Since I've graduated from Davis, which about 8 months now, I've struggled in finding a Christian community back home. I already knew before graduating that I wanted/needed to find a home church when I moved home, but with the different environment I didn't always put in the effort to put myself out there or go to a church on Sunday. But when I did attend, God always blessed me with a message that hit close to home.
Eight months later, I've visited City Church SF two times, and there are many positives about it, and I think that will be the church I'll be attending for now. However, in another 5-6 months, I'll be going to Southern California College of Optometry in Fullerton. So I will be displaced yet again. But considering where I was spiritually 8 months ago, and now it's definitely improved. Improvement wasn't in leaps and bounds, but all the small things culminated and have led to God blessing me during the past 3-4 days.
I visited my friend Jianni, at UCB, and knew she usually has small group Bible study on Wednesday nights. I asked if I could go because the last time I actually participated in a Bible study with a group was back at Davis. Dissecting the Word was amazing, and God just pointed out so many things to our group. The Bible is where amazing happens.

The passage we studied was Acts 9:19-31:

19and after taking some food, he regained his strength.

Saul in Damascus and Jerusalem

Saul spent several days with the disciples in Damascus. 20At once he began to preach in the synagogues that Jesus is the Son of God. 21All those who heard him were astonished and asked, "Isn't he the man who raised havoc in Jerusalem among those who call on this name? And hasn't he come here to take them as prisoners to the chief priests?" 22Yet Saul grew more and more powerful and baffled the Jews living in Damascus by proving that Jesus is the Christ.^[a]

23After many days had gone by, the Jews conspired to kill him, 24but Saul learned of their plan. Day and night they kept close watch on the city gates in order to kill him. 25But his followers took him by night and lowered him in a basket through an opening in the wall.

26When he came to Jerusalem, he tried to join the disciples, but they were all afraid of him, not believing that he really was a disciple. 27But Barnabas took him and brought him to the apostles. He told them how Saul on his journey had seen the Lord and that the Lord had spoken to him, and how in Damascus he had preached fearlessly in the name of Jesus. 28So Saul stayed with them and moved about freely in Jerusalem, speaking boldly in the name of the Lord. 29He talked and debated with the Grecian Jews, but they tried to kill him. 30When the brothers learned of this, they took him down to Caesarea and sent him off to Tarsus.

31Then the church throughout Judea, Galilee and Samaria enjoyed a time of peace. It was strengthened; and encouraged by the Holy Spirit, it grew in numbers, living in the fear of the Lord.

Acts 9:19-31 (NIV)

Unfortunately I will make a list of the 3 things that I took from the passage:
1) Importance of community
2) Words deserving of death
3) Saul's inherent traits

1) Importance of community
When reading the passage, it's noticeable how Saul is dependent on disciples and his own disciples on helping him escape, directing him to the next town, or even vouching for his credibility post-conversion. Also when Saul first enters the town, he looks to join the disciples already there. He actively searches for community when in a different environment. Many people are doubtful of Saul because of his persecution of Christians, but Barnabas advocates him to the Apostles. Also his disciples help him escape; the community is aware of another's struggles and problems. When I was listening to Elijah (a person in the small group, not the OT prophet) talk about dependence on community and how Saul was lowered in the basket. The image of Saul just crouching in a basket with no one to lower him appeared in my head...heh. So, recognizing the importance for community when you need to be apart of the body is important, and as a body recognizing when one of you members is struggling is necessarily in keeping the body strong.

2) Words deserving of death
I thought of this because Saul would immediately preach once he reached a city, and what he said, "He is the Song of God." That phrase along with other things that Saul might have said cause people to plot to kill him. How often do we find ourselves saying something that we would be killed for? Also to grasp that what Saul is saying is the truth, and how the truth can get you killed. I thought of Jack Nicholson, in a Few Good Men, saying, "You want the truth, you can't handle the truth," and how that resonates with the general public when hearing about Hell, and not receiving salvation if not accepting the grace and forgiveness of Jesus Christ. There is one truth and many lies, and as Christians we accept that truth and try to live lives according to that truth. Are we or do we present the truth in a way that can get us killed, or do we water it down so we can stay safe? Putting the situation in perspective, it's not like what Saul was saying was just some joke that people would ignore, but it was something so against the grain, so different, that people wanted to kill him for it.

3) Saul's inherent traits
Comparing pre-conversion and post-conversion Saul, Saul's skills and personality traits do not change, but their use is redirected for building the kingdom of God. Saul was a zealous pharisee who persecuted Christians from town to town, but after he was converted he was an active, bold speaker spreading the message truth that Christ is and was God. God created Saul, and when the time was right, He used Saul to become His messenger. We are created by God, and He knows what we're capable of, but are we using what He's given us for the kingdom of God? In the a similar aspect, who is to say that Person B is not or cannot be a servant of God because He doesn't act or possess certain traits or skills. We are created by God and all we are can and will be used by Him if we allow it.

This is probably shorter than it could be and longer than intended, but I do need to sleep because I have to work. Praise God for the Book of Truth, and how we only scratch the surface of it. It's been a good week for me, and God again showed me how much I can learn if I dig deep into His Word.